Lucky Seven

As I head to work I can’t seem to forget what I was feeling 7 years ago today. I was sitting in an 8am Economics class this very moment that just didn’t want to end. Why did I want this class to end? Because the night before, as I was finishing an assignment, a sweet guy had been keeping me company over MSN, and somewhere during the night he mustered up the courage to ask me out. When I had agreed, I had never thought that this was the guy who I would have ended up marrying 5 years later…

We spent the whole week together. From the moment I would get to class to the moment I would leave for the day, he accompanied me to everything. A week that would go down in the books as one of the most precious weeks of my life… That week determined to me that this wonderful guy would be here for the long haul.

It’s seven years today and I think this year is going to be lucky for you and I.
Thank you for loving me the way you do and trusting me like no other ever would and thank you for ALWAYS having my back!
I love you. ❤

Sunny Scribbles of the Day– Lucky to be Working a Job I Love!

A lot of the time I complain that I have a BAZILLION tasks to complete, and only 8 hours to complete it.  Well now that I think about it… I am super lucky to be busy.  Just a year ago at this time I was going out of my mind with boredom, not really sure where my life was headed.  And Look at me now.  I am working in a job where I feel like I am appreciated and cared for.  My colleagues are amazing.  My work is different ever day!  I am super lucky! I think we need to take more time out of our days to appreciate the things we take for granted… like our regular nine-to-five There are people out there who would KILL to have a regular job.  <3

Sunny Scribbles of the Day – Oatmeal Habit

What made me happy today? That’s a hard question… It was after all, the first day back at work after the holidays. I’m not going to kid you and say that I was super excited to go back. But I must say I was pretty happy that I got right back into my routine! I even had oatmeal for breakfast (that was my pre-holiday habit)! I know, oatmeal is a pretty small thing to be happy about but to me, it signifies better decisions and eating healthy. Yay! This is a good sign for the rest of the year

Sunny Scribbles of the Day – Mint Tea TLC

Over the next year, I want to focus on the positives in life. I feel like I use this blog to rant a lot. I think this year I will take a few minutes everyday to jot down the points in the day that made me smile. So to begin, here’s today’s…

Today is the first day of the year, and I brought with me the cold I had the past week into the new year! The sore throat was starting to establish itself for a longer visit when my hubzter, my everyday knight in shining armour decided to take matters into his own hands and make me some amazingly soothing mint tea with ginger and honey. Although it is a tiny gesture, it made a world of a difference to my overall mood. He just made it all better! I love him

Judgement

Judgement. Everyone is a victim of it at some point in their life. Sometimes it’s self induced and other times it’s presented to you on a silver platter against your will. The question is, who gives you the right to go about judging an individual’s actions without first asking… Do I know the whole story.
I encourage you to take a moment before you judge the way a person looks or acts and ask yourself if you know enough to determine what they should be.

In life there are many instances where we misjudge someone because of our own insecurities. We look down on them, we behave rudely to them, we basically treat them in a way we would never chose to be treated. If we were more secure with ourselves we would have little time to observe and nitpick on others. I feel as though we find things wrong with other people to cover up the fact that we feel inadequate.

I really hope that we can, as a society accept the different backgrounds, creeds and walks of life we all come from and move forward as a whole.

Okay, rant over.

The 4F’s Food-Fitness-Fulfillment-Failure

Okay.. so blogging every day is not something I can commit too yet… I have WAY too much on the go .. ALL THE TIME.  So it’s not a COMPLETE surprise when I haven’t blogged about all the food I ate and how I fared with week.  So I decided that I would at least do a round-up of the week.
I will talk about the 4F’s – Food, Fitness, fulfillment and Failure… (isn’t it genius? .. ok fine.. I’m in Marketing.. it reminded me of the 4P’s BOO SUE ME!)

 

Okay so without further waiting… (or lame jokes..)

This is a collection of the FOOD I was eating this week..

Lunch on Friday afternoon

I have to confess though that the last weekend was REALLY bad in terms of food choices.. What is not pictured above is the biryani I had that night… or the waffles and second round of biryani I had on Saturday morning… followed by barbecued chicken for lunch and ending in a seafood stew for dinner with friends.

YUMMY Breakfast!

Again not pictured here are the indian appetizers I had at the wedding I attended followed by a lunch of butter chicken and vegetable jhafrazi and other yummy indian menu items that have the work paneer and makhni.. hardly words that scream HEALTHY to you.

In all of this I tried to maintain oatmeal in the morning.  I think that’s what has really stopped me from over eating on all this rich food that I have been consuming.  One thin I paid attention to is my fullness level.  When I was feeling like I could eat a little more.. I stopped.  Because on a regular day… I would have continued to eat.  LOL.

Last night I had an old friend come over to do some catching up and wedding planning and we snaked – I think the whole ordeal was pretty healthy… I had to add the cupcakes though… it doesn’t feel like a catch up session without little cuppies!

Guacamole with crackers, mini cuppies and green tea <3

Last night I ended up making lunches ahead so that I would not be forced or tempted into buying something to eat from work.. So I grilled some chicken and had some sautéed veggies to go along with it.  Mind you I have given up Coke… and I have been really trying to cut out the coffee.. It’s only been a week since I have my breakdown about priorities and how unhappy I am with the way that I have treated myself.  It will take some time, and I would rather that it take it’s time then be a one time thing.

Yummy Lunch

The FITNESS aspect, is not my forte.  I hate cardio workouts.  I feel really self-conscious.  I don’t like looking at myself in the mirror doing that kind of thing.

I hate to sweat.  so naturally, I took up HOT YOGA.

I know. The irony.  I loved it.  the feeling of releasing tension is just amazing.  I highly recommend it.  I think that this is something I could incorporate into my life.. if only it was a cheaper form of exercise.

Because I am not a fitness junky.. I have nothing else for you.

FULFILLMENT came in the form of getting on the scale and seeing that I had dropped 2LB in a week! WHAT! I realize that this is probably water weight… but I don’t care! I did drop that weight.. and no one can take it away from me other than….. me..   -_-’

You see, this is where FAILURE comes in… I started Yoga(YAY).. but I’ve only made it in ONCE this week! WHAT?? EFF. I could do so much better than this.. I know it… but for some reason I could not for the life of me get up early enough to go any other day this week. I hope I can change this starting tomorrow.

Anyways peeps… that’s what has been going down.

Thanks for keeping me in check

<3

 

 

 

 

Food Journal – 08.23.2012 [Day-1]

I’m trying this new thing where I am trying to be more accountable to myself.

I am attempting to teach my brain that I trust myself.  So in hopes of doing this… I am posting a food journal.

Breakfast: Bowl of plain oatmeal made with water, and a spoon of strawberry jam.

Lunch: Gazpacho.

Dinner: (not pictured) Pasta in meat sauce, at about 3/4 cup, in a bowl.

Snack: (not pictured) Handful of almonds.

Water: 8 glasses

Other: one cup of coffee – black, 1 sugar.

<3

Am I my own priority?

Everyone has a list of priorities.

For some people, thier list of priorities are essentially that… a TO-DO list.  Each day is a brand spankin’ new page with tasks divided according to urgency.  For a lot of people, they are more large scale goals that are never really written down but are thier in the back burners of thier minds… simmering away… allowing little every day changes accomplish the larger goals at hand.

I always thought of myself as a girl who had her priorities straight.  I knew from an early age what it is I wanted from my life. I knew I wanted to do something fun with my life.  I didn’t want to be in a mundane job, I wanted a fullfilling career… I know I wanted to finish school in the program I wanted to be in, rather then the one my parents wanted me to go into.  I knew I wanted to marry young. I knew I wanted to take care of my own family.  I had very clear goals in life.

it was all…

Work hard — get through your program— Work while at school — make money — Keep going — you have stuff to do in the world — Maintain a relationship — Be good to him — Keep going — you have bearly started — plan wedding — marry Mr.Shahzadi — Start own company — dive into promoting it — No money to invest in the company — Start a big girl job — move to better appartment — decorate appartment — enjoy life — enjoy being married — wedding blog —….

All the while, I forgot about ME.

All this time.. I ate whatever I wanted.  I slept when I felt it was convenient, I didn’t give a crap about my physical self… buying new clothes and turning a blind eye to the increasing number on the size tag.  The thought of exercising kept popping up in my mind as something I should probably start doing, but the motivation to focus on MYSELF dwindled to nothingness.  I don’t know how i got this way.  But all I know is that, that’s where I am.

Last night I came to the conclusion that I really don’t care about MY PHYSICAL SELF.

Last night, I came to the conclusion that I don’t matter to myself.  I have always put everyone before me.  I can’t remember the last time I respected myself enough to know that my body needs me.  It needs me to pay attention to it. It needs me to listen to it when it -

needs nutrition – not fatty foods

needs excersise – not excuses on why I can’t

needs sleep – not a late night movie

needs water – not pop

needs coffee… –> i get it, i do.

I need to realize that the physical body that has helped me to attain all my past goals needs a little TLC.  I can’t continue this anymore.  I can’t be the girl that can’t smile at herself in the mirror because she can’t stand to look at herself.

I need to be my number 1 priority.

Happy Raksha Bandhan Skreech!

I am the oldest child in my family and I was blessed with a little sister. She is my heart and soul. That will never change… BUT

I was never given the luxury of having a brother. I always wanted an older brother. For as long as I could remember. And through out my life I have had the opportunity to call many a great men my brothers… but one in particular has ALWAYS been there..

Skreech…

We met when I was in first year… through my mister. Of all the people I had met through my mister, Skreech became my friend outside of the relation to my husband. He and I hit it off from the first met him. We loved cracking jokes, talking about dance and music.. We had a great bond.. something I recognised from a very early stage.

Than within a year and a half of knowing him… he had to leave Canada and go to Dubai..

At first I was really sad… I felt like the distance between us would cause a huge gap in our friendship. That like most friendships that are faced with distance, ours would suffer and dwindle down to “acquaintance status”. It’s not something that I was bitter about, I realized that it would happen because we have our lives… we have our own schedules.. we can hardly manage to meet with friends that live in the same city, much less a different country.

had to get approval before heading to a wedding <3

I was so wrong. wrong would be an understatement.

Skreech not only kept in contact with me… he became a constant individual in my every day.

He showed me what a real friendship looks like. He listened while I cried about situations where he had no idea what I was talking about but had the time to devote to making me feel better. He gave me advice, he gave me a shoulder to cry on.. even though he was so far away.

Over the last 6 years, we have had amazing stories to tell.. proud moments, not so proud moments.. and over this course of time… he has become like family to me. We have been by each other’s side in spirit and physically through all of life’s major milestones… through relationships, giving each other advice on how to deal with our significant other, each of us getting married … his lovely little angel of a baby…

All grown up and married <3

And as we move forward into our new lives with new things happening every day, I can rest assured that I have a person in my life, as solid as a rock. People, time, distance have all just played a positive role in our relationship and although you don’t like being called my brother… to me.. you are the epitome of family to me. Your wife and your daughter are lovely additions to this “chosen family” we have created.. and on this Raksha Bandhan, I hope you know… there are love and prayers coming at you all the way from here…

<3

a little birthday note for my mister on his 28th

Today is a very special day around here… Wanna guess what it is?? It’s my mister’s birthday! YAY!

 

He has spent every birthday since his 22nd by my side! Six birthdays later, the day is still as filled with excitement and fun for ME! He says he’s getting too old for birthdays… but I think you should celebrate them while you still got ‘em.. know what I mean?? YA

The love of my life is 28 today! That’s it! he’s 30 in two more years .. wow.. he is old… -_-’

I want you to know mister that you are such an important person in my life.  you have filled it with happiness and joy.. you have filled it with laughter courtesy of your lame jokes…You have filled my life with useless knowledge only a documentry-aholic would know… and you have made sure that you bring out the most real version of me.

Thank you for always being a constant in my life.  Your birthday no matter what will be a special day for me ALWAYS!

<3